I almost didn’t start a blog. It just seemed so narcissistic to write about my personal thoughts and experiences and assume people would want to read them. It felt a little presumptuous and self-focused. As if anyone really cares what I have to say!
Yet, what I’ve found in the blogging world is farthest from this. I’ve found others giving support, encouragement, sharing perspectives and ideas. There’s a whole community out there at my fingertips! I’ve thoroughly enjoyed reading truly talented writers bravely and boldly speaking their truths and eloquently sharing their perspectives.
I’ve come to realize that blogging does not have to drive attention-seeking and fuel the ego. It’s about creating connection, relationships and encouraging authenticity. I started my blog to do something different on social media. To bravely share life lessons through my own struggles, insecurities and challenges. I must admit it feels vulnerable literally exposing my dirty laundry (see my “Confessions of a Recovering Perfectionist” post). But I believe this is important. So much of social media presents polished images and posts of perfectly happy people.
Working in the mental health field, I know this is not reality! Normal people struggle, marriages flounder, mothers worry about damaging their children for life, depression and anxiety flourish. What if there was a way to break open this pretending and perhaps minimize the stigma and shame?
As a licensed clinician, I must tread carefully in sharing client stories. Even if I am careful to not identify someone, confidentiality is critical and of utmost importance. If ever I decide to go that route, I suppose I will speak in generalities. Understandably, my family has already requested that I don’t post about them, lol! And as a mom, I must be careful about posting stories of my children that could come back to haunt them or expose them to predators. So what else is left? Well, that leaves my cat and me! And, well, my cat just sleeps all day.
Truth is, I don’t think I have some great big wisdom and insight to share with the masses. I’m not a typical blogger that has a background and talent in creative writing. I just want to share some refreshingly honest and real stories of the struggles and lessons I’ve learned in life. Some as a mom, some as a woman, some as a therapist.
Pretty sure that doesn’t make me a narcissist. But just to be sure, I took the Narcissistic Personality Inventory, lol. Luckily I scored an “8” so I’m relieved to confirm my blogging doesn’t make me a narcissist ?
Here’s a link if you want to take the test too! http://personality-testing.info/tests/NPI/